“You come to me with a casual flow, And suddenly, my defences start to go

When you talk to me in that sensual tone, It envelops me and I lose my self control

And baby, I just melt away, Fall like rain, Everytime I see your face, I go off

I just want to break it down, Anytime you come around, Baby I could melt away in your arms – Melt away Mariah Carey”

Forgive that blast from the past, I actually bought that CD earlier and went straight to song no 9….ahh the memories J

I know what you are thinking and yes you are correct, like a Pheonix he rises from the ashes…I have been AWOL for the last 3 weeks or so. And to be honest I have just been in a lull. You know when you get into a space where you are just alive but hardly living.

To be honest as I sit here writing I can think of nothing to complain about every facet of my life is pretty darn peachy. I guess that is why I decided to write to you today. Today I woke up like any other day in the past few weeks. Up bright and early, tried reading watched a bit of world news, realized its too cold for gym so we will try it again later in the day. Decided to get up. BUT I did something very different.

Yesterday I was driving around with this driven and focused young man who has been doing an ‘internship’ with us for the last 2 weeks or so. Anyway on our way to the car, he picked up a couple of nice looking pebbles/stones, I asked him what that was about and he reminded me of this part in the Secret about a gratitude rock. I looked at him, initially like whatever, but I picked one tho and placed it on my bedside locker.

So back to my story, this morning like every other morning I woke up and went through my same rituals, but what I did differently was I drew my curtains wide open, looked at the sky above, held my little rock in my hand and said thank you…thank you for the fact that I woke up, thank you for the fact that I have a bed and warmth, thank you for the fact that I have a roof over my head, thank you for such a great family and friends, I can walk, see, hear, a t.v., a shower with warm water, the fact that I have a job that gives me joy, a car to get me to my work, clothes on my back… and the list goes on. It may sound so random but I cant tell you what a difference it made to my day from the get go to now. I had a bounce in my step. Everything was just a joy, I had a bounce in my step, I had jokes. It was just a pleasant day all round, rounded off with a great dinner at Pete, Carla’s and little Kyle’s.

The events of today have sparked me back into motion, just always remember the little things, I tell you it will help you change your focus.

Another thing that really sparked this email was on Sunday I went to church. The preacher was speaking about forgiveness and anger and stuff. To be honest I got the gist but I wasn’t paying too much attention to the man I was day dreaming but the topic got me thinking. The way I see those too emotions is that they are more destructive than they are constructive. I am not saying don’t get angry but don’t let the anger consume you. Generally anger is a result of a past action an action that you cant change. Learn from it and find ways to move forward constructively. It’s really the only way.

At the end of the day holding grudges and harbouring anger will be only to your detriment. Learn what you want you want and move on. I must be honest, in this life, there is not one soul I have a grudge against, not cos I am a saint, but cos I just cant seem to find how I benefit from that emotion!! Ok I lie, there is this one dude, u know the one dude that you would just like to give you an excuse to just slap, not beat up, just a nice warm p**sklap…(but I am not angry with him…its just one of those things, u don’t think about till u see him) J oh I cant wait

That’s me for another week, plenty to be grateful for focus on that and everything else is a bonus. Forgive, don’t harbor anger, it will hurt you more than benefit you.

Birthdays

27^th May Monica

29 Lauren W, Brett and Delia

31 AC, Dear cous Nana Yaa and Lovely Miss Rachel

2^nd June Mame Ekua

6^th Helen

9^th Ivan

11^th Ameer

12^th Carl, Mark e

13^th Ed H

17^th Laila and Tasneem D

18^th Lebo

20^th Kgash and Jake

21^st Hamish

Ya ne that’s what I get for being absent for so long, hope you all have/had blessed birthdays.

On that note I sign off. Wishing you all well for the rest of your week. Little things…

Maximum respect! Que sera sera